Cecilia.

Complicated.

Jesus called me to talk about returning his book that we had rented. I printed out the papers he needed and my expectation was to give him the papers and close the door but that is not what happened. What really happened was I gave him the papers and he started asking me about school and how I’ve been. Then he asked me if I had a boyfriend and I told him I did. He got upset, and from there we talked about our break up and he realized that what he did was the wrong thing to do. I also realized that we both still have deep feelings for each other. He straight up told me that he wants me back and I want to be with him too. I have missed him everyday since we broke up. Regardless if I have a boyfriend I still have missed him, thought about him and have feelings for him. Ugh, why must my love life be so complicated. I never thought that I would be stuck in this kind of situation. But no matter what I will do anything and everything to be back with him. Yes I will hurt JO’s feeling but I need to do what’s best for me and what makes me happy. 

Craving.

I’m hella craving some Sour D…Yumm!

To you from me

I never thought that we would have to come to this but you made a decision and it was the worst one you have ever made. Now that you’re not my friend I can truly say that you were the worst. I actually thought I liked you a lot, but I guess it was just that I was used to being around you that I didn’t know what else to feel. But now I’m happy with him and though it may look bad on me, I’m truly happy. I sure hope that the weed makes you as happy as I ever made you. Weed won’t give you what I gave you.